Please Shoot Me Now!

Why on earth do we chase our tails?

People watch others, laughing for sure when they know they're looking for something. These past four days I have been going up to the local Indian clinic... Looking for someone that worked there... Someone I was repeatedly told to come and talk to if I had a question regarding my health insurance... Well, finally! After four stinking days!... A woman at the counter, tells me that the person I was in search of... Up and quit her job in July of this year. (...)

This same lovely lady, we will call her stone-face... Has watched me come in and out of there every single day... Now. I just know, more than likely, that she giggled every time I left. Knowing I would be back tomorrow...

Sometimes I wonder if she would lean over to the girl next to her and say Hey, here she comes again and giggle to each other... Here I come with my gee golly, look on my face, wondering if I just have the worst luck ever. Standing at the empty door, confused, how can anyone miss each other that much. Never mind, I would turn and trot back passed the stone-faced woman who giggles (if you can imagine such a thing).

As I leave nobody even waves or yells hey dumb ass what do you want? Nothing just watches me go... Is common courtesy dead? Are office personal, not given that handbook at training class 101? If someone came in looking like they needed something, I would say Is there anything I can help you with? Let them know, hey goofball I see you, and I can try to help you... That is if I want to.

Well, at this point I have a billion other smalls on my list to try and deal with so I decide to try again in a couple days.

Two days later..... (felt like Spongebob right there... just saying)

I'm going to see her today, even if they have to page her at home. I must have someone out there in the world just screwing with me... Because at 9am, she wasn't there. Okay, after lunch I'm back (Jack Nicholson moment right there) That's when my stoned-faced friend tells me, "She up and just quit her job back in July of this year."

I'm freaking the luckiest darn person in the world... No way for a week, I have been coming and going looking for a ghost! Jokes on me. No wonder this lady has been laughing.

After I looked... What I guess, was loopy... The sweet doll of a lady tells me, I will have to run off to some Podunk town (only god can find) to talk to the next yahoo in line for the job... Please, just shoot me now. I will not just trot off to god only knows, alone because I'm the kinda girl that can get lost in her closet... If you don't draw me a map back out.

When I was younger... And honestly just stupid... It was okay if I loaded my butt in the car and drove off with no map, no phone, and really no money... Because, well like I said, I was stupid and a kid. Now I'm old. I have to have my credit cards, my phone, charger, GPS, and written directions because I still don't truly trust my boyfriend Google to get me where I need to be. (plus, I like to listen to Spotify while I drive.)

When my first son was born, I didn't even own a cell phone and I made it... But, now... How would I play my games or find out who is at the Kum-N-Go gettin' a soda and a beef stick?

I know, you're wondering... Will she go to Podunk town or won't she?... I may, but not till I make some phone calls first. I need to know if Podunk is real.

I will keep you posted about this town... Who knows? If I go, I may never return. (giggles) Must be bedtime, this is getting mysterious and very funny too... For no reason at all! I was hacked off when I started this crazy post, so ending on a laughing note is just therapeutic.

Night, Night!